HOW CAN THIS ALL HAPPEN SO FAST?!
How can we go from playing dress up to getting wasted in such a short time. How can sex go from an awkward subject we have to learn about from the wrinkly old nurse, to a regular activity you hear about all the time.... from your friends? How can a car go from a bright pink toy that you keep all your barbie gear in, to a really expensive necessity? How can drinking go from meaning drinking a juice box, to meaning getting intoxicated and partying with your friends. Since when does smashed no longer mean when something breaks? Since when is it wrong to have a sleepover with a boy? How long has this thing been going on where we have to get jobs? That is not flying well with me!! How come nobody told me that you need to have a steady boyfriend as soon as you hit this age because all your friends will and if you don't, you better hope to God that you have a hobbie, 'cause basically you're not gonna have any friends anymore. Sometimes I'll walk to the park and swing on the swings cause I remember how fun it was... sometimes I'll dress up and then just sit at home, cause I remember how fun it was... sometimes I still turn on N*Sync or the Spice Girls (which reminds me.. when did boy bands go out.. can you even imagine being in highschool while boy bands were in.. I just can't even imagine that!! Were they even cool in highschools?! I was in elementary when they came out so I don't even know!). Sometimes I actually wish I was 5 again.
I always get so upset when I hear one of my friends talking about moving out, or talking about how they are so excited to grow up so they can do this or get that or whatever... because, why wish that you were older.. when you get that old, you're just gonna wish you were younger again. Then I get to thinking and I realise that wishing you were younger is just as bad as wishing you were older, maybe even worse. At least when you're wishing to be older you are making plans and thinking about your future. When you're wishing you're younger all that's on your mind is toys and Disney and cookies. I think that I'm gonna spend the rest of my life focusing on the now. Not the now meaning me being seventeen, but the now meaning whatever age I am, I'll embrace it, take full advantage of every second. Sure, I'll still have memories and sure, I'll still have goals and hopes for the future, but I will love my age the way it is and I will take full advantage of it!